My sEcrEt twEakEr pAd,

this is a blog for those of you who sometimes question your sanity, and may no longer believe in this reality. If your anything like me you may abuse drugs, embrace insomnia, treat sex like a religion, mutilate your body, and eat only when your stomachs feeling up to it. InsaNIty both fascinates and scares me. Every word out of my mouth is a metaphor that mostly only I understand.

c0cainementhols:



I think about this a lot. How everyone is having a very unique earthly experience. Everything is just you and projections of your perception. Nothing really exists. We are all one, just having different trips



Do a flip.

c0cainementhols:

I think about this a lot. How everyone is having a very unique earthly experience. Everything is just you and projections of your perception. Nothing really exists. We are all one, just having different trips

Do a flip.

(Source: calebostgaard)

biecnal:

Tina is gonna spin us right around baby!  Who else is enjoying the magic crystals tonight? 

♥ all my Tweaker Nation friends.  That erratic line that about to go up my nose is dedicated to you all!

:-)

comedown

Its been a while since ive felt a bad comedown,
I dont miss it.
The 2 pots of coffee and adderall ive consumed got me higher than the clouds.
but what goes up must come down.

I feel out of my skin for some reason, searching the entire house for something that will get me high or drunk. I must of searched this whole house top to bottom over a dozen times already.
I know my dad has adderall, zopiclone, oxycontin and alcohol hidden somewhere in this house but I just cant find it. I know my dad has weed…I looked at it and there was only a .2 gram left so I pack most of it in a pipe and then I replaced what I took with cilantro so he wouldn’t notice I took some.
Its better than nothing, but the thirst for getting higher is still there.
Im sneaky.
and im once again disgusted of myself.

my 4 favourite drugs are in this house and yet I cant find them,
Do you know what its like to be in this position?
shitty.
now its time to smoke my last smoke, and im completely broke. great